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likeabulldozer) wrote2011-03-18 12:55 pm
likeabulldozer) wrote2011-03-18 12:55 pm
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BUT I JUST POSTED ONE!!
This one is about weight, exercise, food and the way I've been feeling about it all in general. So please, mute if you wish.
Right now at this moment I weigh almost as much as I did when I was pregnant with Dustin. I don't remember my top weight with him but I do know I stopped looking at the scale sometime in the 8th month and that number was 138. I'm 135 right now. I know that's not like wow weight but I'm 5'1 so I can't really pull off a lot of extra weight and right now I feel like I'm carrying around at least 10 pounds too much really 20 pounds. Logically and emotionally...really all the allys I realize that it's not a weight to be stressed about or worried about but what does bother me is I keep putting the weight on slowly but surely. I remember when at one time I said 'I'll be happy if I just stay in a 6' (after no longer being to squeeze into the 4's) and then it was 8's and now it's 10's and I don't want to make this a normal regular thing. I want to start losing the weight now and try to get back to the 6's or at least the 8's. It's not so much about size or weight as it is about a progression I can see happening and very likely continuing if I keep up what I'm doing.
I don't eat horrible. I cut out most fast food and non diet sodas years ago when I went from the 4 to the 6. I snack too much I think. Particularly at night. I sit and watch tv and play on the computer and I want snacky things. I also tend to go back for seconds or overload my plate at dinner because during the day I don't eat much. Dinner tends to be my main meal and if I could change that I would but my day just doesn't really allow for breakfast or lunch to be the main meal. I did get some special K and I'm going to boil eggs and see if I can start making breakfast at least some cereal and a boiled egg or a piece of string cheese or something.
I've got to start exercising too. If I can do this plus cut out some of the snacky things I think it'll make a huge difference. I'm shooting for treadmill 5 days a week. In order to do this I have to get up at 6AM (5:45 when I transition to 30 minute work outs) because I know if I wait until after work I won't do it. I spent 90% of my day on my feet so when I get home the last thing I want to do is walk more. Although I do plan on 3-5 days a week doing some weight lifting. We have a bowflex that doesn't get nearly as much use as it should because I have to look up exercises and the right way to do them before I get on it and it's time consuming. I'm not naturally coordinated or athletic so it takes me a bit to get it right. I'm going to do it though because I want my arms to be more muscled and less 'my grandma's' arms.
SO this is my plan: Treadclimber in the morning every weekday (because if I make it 3-4 then I'll start slacking because I'll get off schedule and want to slack like I get to on that 5th day) and at 9:00 pm 3-4 days a week I'm going to do weights. I'm going to eat breakfast and stop snacking at night. I need to start getting smaller portions at dinner as well. I know I can do these things. I just need to get started and that's the hard part for me.
END weight/exercise rant
Right now at this moment I weigh almost as much as I did when I was pregnant with Dustin. I don't remember my top weight with him but I do know I stopped looking at the scale sometime in the 8th month and that number was 138. I'm 135 right now. I know that's not like wow weight but I'm 5'1 so I can't really pull off a lot of extra weight and right now I feel like I'm carrying around at least 10 pounds too much really 20 pounds. Logically and emotionally...really all the allys I realize that it's not a weight to be stressed about or worried about but what does bother me is I keep putting the weight on slowly but surely. I remember when at one time I said 'I'll be happy if I just stay in a 6' (after no longer being to squeeze into the 4's) and then it was 8's and now it's 10's and I don't want to make this a normal regular thing. I want to start losing the weight now and try to get back to the 6's or at least the 8's. It's not so much about size or weight as it is about a progression I can see happening and very likely continuing if I keep up what I'm doing.
I don't eat horrible. I cut out most fast food and non diet sodas years ago when I went from the 4 to the 6. I snack too much I think. Particularly at night. I sit and watch tv and play on the computer and I want snacky things. I also tend to go back for seconds or overload my plate at dinner because during the day I don't eat much. Dinner tends to be my main meal and if I could change that I would but my day just doesn't really allow for breakfast or lunch to be the main meal. I did get some special K and I'm going to boil eggs and see if I can start making breakfast at least some cereal and a boiled egg or a piece of string cheese or something.
I've got to start exercising too. If I can do this plus cut out some of the snacky things I think it'll make a huge difference. I'm shooting for treadmill 5 days a week. In order to do this I have to get up at 6AM (5:45 when I transition to 30 minute work outs) because I know if I wait until after work I won't do it. I spent 90% of my day on my feet so when I get home the last thing I want to do is walk more. Although I do plan on 3-5 days a week doing some weight lifting. We have a bowflex that doesn't get nearly as much use as it should because I have to look up exercises and the right way to do them before I get on it and it's time consuming. I'm not naturally coordinated or athletic so it takes me a bit to get it right. I'm going to do it though because I want my arms to be more muscled and less 'my grandma's' arms.
SO this is my plan: Treadclimber in the morning every weekday (because if I make it 3-4 then I'll start slacking because I'll get off schedule and want to slack like I get to on that 5th day) and at 9:00 pm 3-4 days a week I'm going to do weights. I'm going to eat breakfast and stop snacking at night. I need to start getting smaller portions at dinner as well. I know I can do these things. I just need to get started and that's the hard part for me.
END weight/exercise rant
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Since my brother died I haven't been able to lose much more weight; I keep doing that thing where I'm like "I feel like shit therefore I'll eat a cookie," and while I've been getting better at it, it's still a challenge. Your plan sounds great - just don't beat yourself if you don't make it every single day. That makes it worse.
You can rant to me anytime. I wish you much luck and keep me posted on how you're doing. :)))
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You're not being preachy at all! I appreciate the advice/feedback. A ten isn't a bad place to be and if I could tone up, I'd be okay with a ten. I just don't want to get bigger and the current trend with me is just to keep going up sizes. That's a path I don't want to go down.
I read this (http://health.yahoo.net/rodale/WH/lose-your-fear-of-lifting) article today that really confirmed the fact I want to do some weight lifting to see how that goes. I know the last time I got into good shape and lost some weight (after I had Dustin) I was doing some weight lifting with it. I'm also using livestrong to track all my calories, hoping that'll make me really watch what I'm eating.
Oh honey I have days like that. I think everyone does and with what you're going through it's understandable. You might try doing some walking or some yoga or something first and see if that helps? I know after I work out, no matter how much I don't want to do it, I feel thinner and better despite the fact that I know logically it didn't make enough of a difference for me to feel 'skinny'. Keep your head up. Thanks for the advice/support. I really do appreciate it and ditto on the ranting.